what a day again

today is such a long day...
and i went home at last...

"so sorry you have to go through this" elaine told me
thanks for your encouragement i think..

well...about delia missing thing...
it was such a awful hours...
because it remind me that time you were gone
you gone...disappear for one month
but apparently i was the only one who dont know where you've been
it make me kinda disappointed
and luckily she's back after 4hours ganjiong-ment
and safely....thank god

today was such a awful day...
well a small part was the math paper and delia missing..
but most of the part were about me
i given a plane (sorry!!!) and i skipped my piano class
i being such a bitch today
i had a talk with someone who was tracking me all the times since i've lie to him
a arguement is more suitable
i cried not because of i felt guilty of what i had done
i cried because of the changing between us....all of us...

and then i skipped my piano class
walking alone at the park...my park...
then the color of the sky scared me...
then it started rain...yea....i walking in the rain...
it feel familiar...it was months ago i walk in the rain...
i feel so stress and so upset about what he had said...
and im so tired...

all in instant everything changed,
we leave the pass behind and speed to the unknown world
to our future
we set up to far out places and try to find ourselves
or try to lost ourselves

The problems start when we refuse to let change happen
And cleans the old habbits
But if we hold on the pass too tight
The future may never come