SOS...help

god damn hell it freaks me out...
i dont know who is going to read this...
but im totally freak out to having all of these..
im scared...
once more i cried...
crying hell is totally not a good idea...
i thought i cut just put these away but i could't
i wake up by the nightmares..
and the feel was awful
im scared...

i need someone be with me...

but it's already 1.20am and it's saturday night..
i'm alone with those freaking thoughts
and afraidness....tears of coz....

i need someone...anyone....
i need help...i need talk....
i need get away from these..

i was wondering to kill myself...