to my dearest friend

to my dearest friend...
i know you're here...
so take a look...
whether who you choose to believe...
as i could't do anything...
so i left a message here..

sometimes, is after the curtain close...
is that the real reckoning comes...
whether we wish who we could be....
or what we wish we could do...
or who we want ...

i was wondering...
if i tell you the truth..
who you going to believe?
and this is not the first time...
so no...he's not forgiven...as you're my friend..
Well done...he's so a professional actor...
he could lied to everyone to protect himself...
i was wondering how she looking at him pretend like a clown everyday..
what a big joke...
then i being ignore everything that what im thinking about...

i'm sorry you're the last to know...

i tried to speak out...but i could't as i promised someone...
i tried to be "Blair" and somebody told me
"peisan, sometimes we must have some patience..."
but...believe me...you'll call me bitch when you know what i want to do...
oh yea..i'm the crazy bitch around here...
you wont believe what im going to do...i have a plan...

but it not going to be a plan anymore...

you know what...
Maybe in the end of this..you got what you wanted...
or maybe you will feel pain in it...
i know...you had given YOUR ALL in this relationship...
i'm so sorry if anything had happened...or anything will happen...
i hope you happy...
if you force to choose...please do what you want to do...
if you fall...please remember i'll always here...
like you use to be...
i'm sorry that you has to gone through that much...

XOXO...
take care...